Friday, June 3, 2011

Nightmare... =(

Morning guys.. Its only 4 o'clock and I can't sleep.. No, actually I just woke up and can't go to sleep. Here's why..

I had a dream, more like a nightmare. I was at this field (I don't know why all my nightmares are on a field) and I saw Faris there, wearing white, not realising that I'm wearing white too.-,-. That's not the whole point.

After that, I ran to him, saying that I'm really happy to see him again. So, he smiled at me but I can see tears running down from his cheeks. When I said why, he didn't say anything. He just turn back and leave.

I thought he was mad at me (I sent him a text message saying goodbye. I was just saying goodnight actually. He got it wrong, I think). So, I tried to turn back too but my feet wanted to go and catch him again.

Suddenly, he was out of sight. I began to feel scared and lonely. Trust me, I've never had that kind of feeling in my life. I don't know how to describe the feeling actually. It was like angry, sad, dissapointed or something like that. Then, the sky turned dark and there was this HUGE tornado coming to get me. I was like, "Go ahead, take me! I don't wanna live!!".

Then, I felt someone pulled me by the arm. I realised that it was Faris. He told me, "I don't want you to leave me. I just don't want to feel down when you're gone,". WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN??! I was just smiling until I found out that I'm suffocating. I woke up, still gasping for air.. He sent me a meassage, "U needed someone to hate. Well this is me saying goodbye.". Is it me, or the nightmare is actually happening right now?


Thursday, June 2, 2011

Counting The Days.. =)

What's up bloggers! As if all bloggers are reading this.. Haha, I'm so full of myself.. XD

I'm only 15 and I have to suffer everything. Love life, study, and most importantly my health condition. Its bad, really bad. Even I don't know it turns out really really bad. So, I cried almost every night. Whatever.. =)

I know I wrote about this before but that wasn't detail enough. I have a heart disease and guess what, it runs in the family! 0,o. I don't know why I'm the only who have to get this?!

Another thing that freak me is the doctor told me I might have a short life. WTF?! What kind of doctor should say anything like that?! I know what am I going through but you don't have to say "You have a SHORT LIFE!". Gosh, unsensitive much?

Everyday I felt pain. Everyday, every night, everytime I tried to breath. The pain was crazy. Sometimes I feel like stabbing my heart so that it wouldn't cause such pain anymore. But, I didn't. Mom said I have to be really strong and they are always there for me. I just love my family and friends. They are the best!

Big chances, I'll be having an operation. But knowing me, there's no way I'm gonna be in that cold operation theatre. Too much drama. Haha, get it? Operation theatre? Drama? I know you guys didn't get it. I'm a lame joker..

Holidays.. OMG! Bored Much!

Hey yo! What's up? Hmm, I'm so bored that I don't know what to write on this precious blog of mine.. Haha, is it that precious? Yeah! XD

I'm completely psyched about the school holidays. Imagine 2 weeks doing nothing but fun! Nah, that is Phineas and Ferb's holidays. Not Sufiah's. Mine is a lot more different and less fun.. -,-

I've blow up my one week of school holidays, AT SCHOOL! Fine, its my PMR year. Have to sacrifice a little bit. I just spend ONE day only at Sunway, and that was because I wanted to meet my friend. Just that. Then, Tuesday till today, school. I can't believe I went to school during the holidays...

So, yeah. School's finally over. Now, holidays. There's nothing much I'm gonna do. Maybe spent most of the time studying (yeah right!), Facebook, blogging, music. I don't know. But I don't think I'm gonna anywhere this year. Just stuck in my house. Oh well, that doesn't mean I'm gonna study till I rot inside my room. Maybe. Haha, nah, that wouldn't happen.

Yeah, so, I have to break out now. Trying to find something good, real good to write. Something interesting. ;-). Haha. CIAO!!!