Morning guys.. Its only 4 o'clock and I can't sleep.. No, actually I just woke up and can't go to sleep. Here's why..
I had a dream, more like a nightmare. I was at this field (I don't know why all my nightmares are on a field) and I saw Faris there, wearing white, not realising that I'm wearing white too.-,-. That's not the whole point.
After that, I ran to him, saying that I'm really happy to see him again. So, he smiled at me but I can see tears running down from his cheeks. When I said why, he didn't say anything. He just turn back and leave.
I thought he was mad at me (I sent him a text message saying goodbye. I was just saying goodnight actually. He got it wrong, I think). So, I tried to turn back too but my feet wanted to go and catch him again.
Suddenly, he was out of sight. I began to feel scared and lonely. Trust me, I've never had that kind of feeling in my life. I don't know how to describe the feeling actually. It was like angry, sad, dissapointed or something like that. Then, the sky turned dark and there was this HUGE tornado coming to get me. I was like, "Go ahead, take me! I don't wanna live!!".
Then, I felt someone pulled me by the arm. I realised that it was Faris. He told me, "I don't want you to leave me. I just don't want to feel down when you're gone,". WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN??! I was just smiling until I found out that I'm suffocating. I woke up, still gasping for air.. He sent me a meassage, "U needed someone to hate. Well this is me saying goodbye.". Is it me, or the nightmare is actually happening right now?
~XOXOXOX~
