Life As A Real Girl..

Hehehe.. I began to love the title for nothing.. +.+

Well, let me tell you something when you are in my shoes.. Not in my crocs or something..

I'm just a normal girl.. Well, not really.. People think I'm crazy, sick, pretty, stupid, smart, evil, nice, sweet, pretty and all.. But underneath all that, I'm just a girl.. Its kinda weird when you came from a family that has a lot of mixtures, for example, my dad is half chinese, half malay and half arab.. For me, that's a lot.. Yeah sure, my grandmom is a pretty old lady.. And she's old.. Haha.. I'm such a bad granddaughter.. So, my dad looks like a chinese.. Too bad, I am the only one who looks like an arab.. And guess what? If people don't know me, they might be mistaken and thought that I am a Christian or a half american, but surely not a Malay.. Hahah.. Its real funny to see them figure out..

In my small girls days, I always wanted to be famous.. And I had became a seriously girlish girl.. You know, the all-pink girl?? Its just a-matter-of-factly disgusting! That wasn't me.. Then I know.. All I have to do is to find the true inner me.. And I found it when I became a teenager.. I am actually a funny and a crazy girl.. Yes, I am loud. REAL loud.. All the pink-girls always think that I'm weird.. But who the hell cares?! Its just me.. I don't fake like most of the girls did.. Trust me, I don't really like that kind of life anymore... I'm a hardcore on the outside, a softy on the inside.. But I don't really like showing the softy side of me.. But, the truth is, being myself is what that kept me really interesting and making all the people wants to know the real me.. I'm COMPLICATED!!

~XOXOXOXO~

Real Resolution ( More Like A Little Bit Early )

Hey hey!

Its been a real long time since I updated my bloggie.. Haha.. Oh well, I've been seriously B to the U to the S to the Y.. Haha.. Yeah, with a lot of stuff.. Finally finished my Form 2, yeahh!! Not sure if that is a bad thing or a good thing.. Answer? Both.. And my love life? Is just great.. He's the best damn thing that my eyes had ever seen! So, yeah..

Ok, this year is like FINALLY coming to an end.. YEAH! New year! New me! New BF? Hahah.. Not a chance.. I'm gonna make my realtionship with my sweetheart last real long.. Not a fake one that I used to have.. Oh well, what's past is the past, right? But sometimes, things will go out of hand without we noticing it... Its true.. Sometimes, we will gonna repeat the damn past again.. But hopefully, I won't..

I made a promised to myself.. Next year, I'm gonna be mature! Not a little girl anymore! And I'm going to prove it, trust me.. And I'll never be unfaithful. Well, actually, trying to be faithful is real hard but I don't know when it comes to him, I am dedicated to stay with him. <3.. One thing about him, he's like the music notes that completes my sheet music.. Woah, I am so romantic.. Haha..

So, next year, I'll be 15.. Three letters, P-M-R!! That is what scares me the most.. Huhuhu.. But that's ok.. With a little help from everyone and especially from myself, I can do it! yeah! My brother got 8A's.. Congrats to you bro! But, next year, its my turn to rock... Well, hope so.. Err..

~XOXOX~

Life Is Hard..

Gosh, I can't believe I'm this mad...

Have you ever wondered why in the world your boyfriend didn't text or call you for a very very long time? And then when you texted or called him, he wouldn't pick up his phone or reply anything? I'm actually experiencing this myself... And trust me, you would feel angry, sad, mad, furious and feels like you wanna kill yourself or kill him straight away..

I know he is having his SPM in a very short time. I told myself that I don't want to disturb him or anything. But yesterday was Hari Raya Aidiladha. I texted him. But he didn't answer anything.. I tried to call him that morning. Like a lot of time, but the same thing, he didn't pick up his phone. I was really upset about it until now. I don't know what is his problem. I was like hello? There is like some more people taking SPM but they just chill for one day! Why can't you?!

If he really loves me, then why didn't he picked up his phone until today?! I've already fed up by his act lately. Its not like we were fighting about something. At least, not now. But he makes me kill myself. I just want to say hye, how are you? Good luck in your exams?! Come on!! Gimme a freaking chance!! I don't know why...

I Can Just Sing It!!

Yo, what's up??!!

OMG! Guess what? I went to my guitar class this week. So, last week, my guitar teacher asked me to hear a song called "That's When I Love You" by Ashlyn. Not sure who is the singer... Oh well, the song was sweet and awesome. Straight away, I learned the chords.. It was freaking easy...
Then, this week, my teacher was asking me about the song. I said I can already play it. So, I played it to my teacher and he likes it. He gave me the real chords ( because the chords I used was not exactly right ). It was awesome.. But that wasn't the whole story..
Remember he asked me to play at the party, right? Well, the party was confirmed. It will be held in my music school. So, he asked me to play that song. I was like "Yes, I will!!". Super excited. He said next week, we are going to practice with drums as I'll be performing with a band. A REAL BAND!! Not Jonas Brothers though but still, A BAND! So, yeah. Next week, we are going to practice. I'm going to play the electric guitar and vocals. He's gonna be the drummer. Now, that's a multi talented young music teacher..
Seriously, he gave me the full responsibility to perform on 18th of December. I was excited plus super nervous. Just imagine, if I was playing then I forgot the chords?? GOD!! I don't want that to happen! Oh well, WISH ME LUCK!!

~XOXOXO~

Going To An End..

Hey!! What's up dude!!

Today has been the messiest day in my life!! I can't believe I got 21/40 for BM paper 1! Its just not fair.. Well, actually it is. You see, the whole class was frustrated with the freaking damn paper.. The JPS who did the paper, had put the stupidest answer just because they wanted to make us confused! What??!! The question was just the same as the answer!! ARGGHH!!

The thing that made me really really mad is the 38th question. It said what is the meaning of the letters that was underlined. I answered the real thing but it was wrong! The teacher said they wanted the meaning of the freaking word. But it was clearly stated they wanted the meaning of the underlined letter!!! Stupid ass!! Who in the hell asked us to answer the word!!

Now, just because of that, I got 21/40 which means clearly I won't get A or maybe, just maybe, close to B. But still!!! The paper 2 won't help that much. The best thing was that I was crying of depression in class!! Damn, I was really sad, mad and hate it. A LOT!! God!! Stupid JPS people who wanted us to fail everything!!!

Breaking In My Comfort Zone..

What does it mean? Usually, they mean being outside the box or something like that,I guess.. Oh well. This is what I actually mean..

I had broke up with Muiz a month ago, I think? Whatever.. So yeah, I thought of being a single lady and be happy. But guess what? I coupled with the guy who I didn't think of doing it.. Afiq. It was quite risky. Duh, he is my second cousin. It all started 12 days ago. It was his B-day. Surprisingly, he called me all day. I just talk to him and all. It was quite weird. Then he asked me if I wanted to be his girl. I answered.. YES! Officialy, I'm his girlfriend. But my family doesn't know anything about this so we are keeping it a secret.

I told Sorayya about it. Can't believe she likes it! She doesn't really approved my previous guys. But this time, she was freaking excited that she made me feeling weird. And so does Akmal. He is so happy about it and always talk about Afiq. Akmal said we really suits each other. Yeah, he's 17 and I'm 14. Awkward..

Then, oh yeah, he gave me this necklace with a pick on it. I really really loved it! I wore it everyday without fail. But, last Friday, I had to go to this dinner. My mom asked me to take off that necklace. I did and I put it in my bag but it was hanging. At the restaurant, I put my bag under the table. I really didn't realize it until I reached my grandmom's house. I was shocked + scared + really really sad. I can't believe I've lost that necklace.

I was so worried and I decided to tell Afiq. I text him that I need to tell something. He called me and I told that the necklace was gone. Yes, I was crying too and end up with a fever. He said, its okay, its only a thing. But, hey, Miss Guilty here! I still can't forgive myself..

~XOXOXOX~

Finals In Hand

Hello guys!! Yes, its been a long time since I updated my blog. I've been seriously busy as a student..

Ok, my finals exams is coming closer! For now, just study as hard as I could to get the perfect score for me. Not for the school. Tomorrow will be the first day of the exams. Bahasa Melayu, History and Sivik. Though love.. -.-. Oh well, the finals will end on Monday, 1st November 2010.. I don't really take the last paper seriously. Its only ICT. About computers..

Rumours has it that next year, the teachers will synchronise the pupils in each class. Which means that equal amount of student from three different races will be in each class. I might be kick down to a different class.. To stay in it, I have to make sure that my results are awesome! But, its hard. No doubt. There's a lot of geniuses in that class compared to me, a normal B+ girl.

Lets hope the paper will be easy so easy that I can get full marks or maybe the teachers will read the answers to me only.. Hehehe.. Not gonna happen..
Good Luck to all 2 Merantians!!

~XOXOX~