again and again

hey! omigosh! it seems like a long time since a posted my last post.. the reason is because my life is getting worse everyday.. trust me, its true.. being a teenager is hard and crazy. its like a million things happens in one second!! its insane. but it also teaches me how to survive when you get much mature and older.. coz the older you get, the harder your life will be.. that's what i know so far.. ughh.. hate being an adult.. i think being a little kid is SO MUCH EASIER than being who i am now.. but i'm happy with everything i got.. like nick jonas said;

"but you don't know what you've got until its gone,
and you don't know what its like to feel so low,
and everytime you smile you laugh you glow,
you don't even know.."

fyi, keep happy!!

i will never believe it!

ARGHH!!

He is the most stupidest human being! I never believe he said that! Now I know, I swear he will never be my friend again! I had given a thousand chances and now the chances is FINISH! I don't know what happened to him.. He had change a lot since he became friends some so-called-cool-dudes. And they made him change over night! And now he hates me and obviously day by day, I know inside I hate him more than I hate to eat Chilli.. How could he did that? I mean he said we are supposed to be friends like forever, living in New York, working under a same roof... No! All of them are just some stupid imagination. I won't work about being friends anymore. If that's the way he wants, then I'm off! He said I never said thanks to him, HEY I DID, OK?! He will never learn about being friends.. Such a cry baby!! Why? He wants everyone to understand his feelings like everyday? DUDE! Get a life! Now I won't talk to him!

JERK!!

pizza party baby!!

hey hey!!

This evening I'm going to my uncle's house for homemade-pizza party! Oh yeah! This is gonna be a blast! He's gonna do some pizzas and we're gonna eat it. Oh, what I mean we is my family, me and my aunt's family.. Huhh.. Hanging out with them are awesome like seriously.. But, tomorrow I've to go this competition. Great.. -.-.. And my turn is the second?! That is so early! huhuhu.. WHY??! But the ustaz was like 'Yeah, you were great. But you have to read it ala arab..'. I was like 'HUH?!'. So whatever.. And my grandmother will not be there! Wohhoo!! Holller! More updates about this crazy pizza party..
XOXO

staying home...

huhhh...

Yeah, I'm at home and I am so bored!! Just because I'm sick and had to stay at home.. At school, I have my lovely friends that are always making me happy and yet crazy. Eventhough I just didn't meet them for 1 day, I still miss them a lot! Now I know having a friend is very special to me! Especially when they love you.. And one more thing is about my grandmother. She asked me to enter this competition which I don't want to enter! But she still forcing me and wants to take me to the competition this evening. God! I don't want to go. Ok, my only problem is, I cannot say no to someone who is much much older than me. I just feel wrong and not suppose to be rude. Hey, I'm a nice girl, ok? But at the same time its eating myself alive. I just don't want to go! Why is it so hard to say no to her? Why does my cousin can say no!!

CRAZY DREAM!

well,

I was asleep this evening because of that cold. But how do I got a dream in the evening? Well, its a scary-funny-romantic-amazing dream! Ok, firstly I was at my school and there were like a lot of people there. More than the school kids.. So, I was like "OOKk..". Then I took a walk around the school to find out. Suddenly I saw Yap with a sunglasses, black shirt, and a blood pattern on his hand which he already showed me, REAL LIFE! So, I came to him as he was holdingg something. This is the dialog in my dream:

Me: Hey, what is that?
Yap: What do you want to see?
Me: I wanna see you.. -.-
Yap: Sure.

Ok, that dialog is so awkward! Like seriously. So back to the dream, we went walking at the canteen where I saw all the Form 4 students are wearing the same thing as Yap. That is so totally weird! I was wondering what was happening until I saw many cameramen in one corner. Then, I got a shock when I saw the Jonas Brothers are there, IN MY SCHOOL! Suddenly, I don't know how, Nick called me.. I sat with them and laughed. Its really cool if only its true..

After talking to them, me and Yap still walking until I noticed all the people were missing. Including Yap. This makes me more and more curious. I heard a loud BOOM! It was actually a Tranformer?! Ok, officialy that is the craziest dream ever. Why there's Yap wearing like a terminator, Jonas Brothers and Transformers in my dream?! Then I don't remember. But still it is the craziest dream ever!!

sick and so scared...

hey!

Arghh!! I'm feeling sick today.. Firstly, I feel dizzy yesterday. Then today, I had a cold. A very bad one! I hate cold coz it makes you uncomfortable. Trust me, I know how it feels.. -.-. And the worst part is, my school is already got hit by a very dangerous disease called.. H1NI!!! That sickness like the most craziest sick ever got hit. There's already like 2 people in my school got H1N1. And supposedly the school got closed but the headmistress of the school didn't want to close it because she wants the her students to catch the syllabus! Does she wanted her students to die just to catch that syllabus?! And the class where the students got
H1N1 is not attending the school. Like what?! That is so not fair!! But the teachers are really scared bout this sickness. I told my teacher that i have a flu and the teacher was like 'Oh, you have to go back". Like what?! So i just stay at school. And now I heve this bad cold because I didn't wear my mask! haha!! My bad ok? Now i have to make sure that i don't have any of that H1N1 disease! I have to make sure I am in a good state of health..

see ya!!

JUST A FRIEND??

Ok, yesterday I got a fight with a guy at my class. We were at the school's library and he was disturbing me! What I did was shout at his face. So, when I was walking out of the library, he threw a book at ME (he is seriously dead!)!! I got so mad and I took a book near me and threw him back. But, it didn't hit him.. shishh!! So, I was like 'Whatever!' and stormed out. Before I could do that, he came running to me and punch me on my SHOULDERS! That was a serious hit! And it hurts! After we got out, I called him 'FAT'(hey, that wasn't as rough as a guy hitting a girl, ok?). So, I went back with Akmal. When i thought everything's over, actually its not.. I said goodbye to Akmal and went back straight away. BUT, he suddenly called me and cross the road just to see me?! Ok, that is so weird. He came up to me and asked me, here's the dialog:

DANIAL: hey, does it hurts?
ME: well, just a little but its cool.. why?
DANIAL: look, i'm sorry i hit you.
ME: OOOKK, but why did you hit me?
DANIAL:.. because there's no other girl i can do that..

So, after that it ended, WAIT, not really. The thing that happened after that is really sweet. I called him and he looked back at me and i gave him a smile and he smiled back.. aww.. for a guy who hit me, he's not that bad.. <3